Use Your Love by Katy Perry.
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Today is a totally laid back day.
Comin' back from Japan was the worst thing to have done.
I miss the cold weather.
I miss the hygienic people.
I miss the systematic yet complicated train system.
I miss the kind service people.
I miss the toilets. (coz they come with butt washers. xD)
I miss the kind people who say sumimasen or gomeinasai even though it's your fault.
I miss the greetings all the shop owners say when you walk by.
I miss the free samplings you are free to take.
I miss the atmosphere.
I miss the 500Soba Noodles. ($8 for a amazin' tastin' bowl of noodles.)
I miss the 100yen shops. ($1.60 only! Cheaper than stupid Daiso SG.)
I miss the weather, Weather, WEATHER!
Why am I born in a country with summer all year long, with pockets of rain.
I want to live in a world where it's Spring, autumn, Winter, Spring, spring, Autumn, Winter Winter WINTER!
I WANT COOL BREEZES AND COLD GUST OF AIR!
I don't want some lazy ass afternoons.
Where it's so freakin' hot.
You can't do a thing.
What I don't miss from Japan.
I won't miss the stupid people who push you in trains.
I won't miss the crazy people who shove tissue papers into your open shoppin' bags.
I won't miss the bathroom that destroyed my phone keypad.
I won't miss the 6am wake up calls. (in SG, that's 5am!!)
I won't miss the sleepless nights just thinkin' about how you feel.
I won't miss the countless msn fights we had.
I won't miss the countless emails with the subject headin' "I'm sorry", "I'm really sorry" and "Please cheer up".
I won't miss the mindless walkin', visitin' shrines.
I won't miss that 2 and a half hour long "Bullet Train" ride from Kyoto to Tokyo.
I won't miss the crappy Breakfast in the Tokyo Hotel.
Like I said the other day, was it ytd?
Goin' to Japan for me was a love/hate situation.
And after the trip.
I've made my pros and cons list.
A bit too late huh?
Pros:
Vacation for me, free from Band.
Winter time, *heart* the cold.
Universal Studios Osaka!
Much more I'm too lazy to type out.
Cons:
Don't get to go for LYPS exchange with LYSS.
Didn't get to go for Maha Bodhi concert, Hui Ting keeps buggin' me.
(Then) I would be away, and he'll be suspicious.
(Now) Someone who knows about us, told him, and now he hates me.
[same as before, too lazy to type all out.]
Don't anyhow think, he and I aren't anyway what you think. We're just ___________ ___ ____ _____.
My __________.
My ________.
ANYWAYS
If you haven't known by now.
I'm gettin' braces this tuesday.
Mixed emotions for it.
Glad I don't have to blow an instrument until the 30th?
No one told me.
So I assume it's on the 30th.
It's not gonna make an ass out of me, and you can't be anymore of an ass than you already are.
So it's a win win situation for the both of us.
I don't know why I try.
I think I have ADD.
Seriously.
I hate the fact that no one pays attention to me.
Only a select few.
and I'm super grateful to have people that can find the time to understand me.
and help me.
and care for me.
and love me.
These include my kor, babeh, di.
My best friend.
My ToP reviver, whose birthday is 14 days away.
My long lost junior.
and my nosey friend.
and who can forget my Jie. (though I hardly can contact her now.)
If only I could add my Senpai.
Just have to wait till it's all over.
Haiz.
Wish I could get a new phone soon.
but I don't wanna waste my parents' money.
It's a dilemma.
Haiz.
My life now is a big mess.
but it's organised mess.
where none are mixed together.
1) My room.
2) My closet.
3) My musical interest.
4) My phone.
5) My internet connection.
6) My preferences.
7) My mind.
8) My no-longer-in-denial-to-the-fact-that-I-have-ADD.
9) My ADD.
10) Christmas, School reopenin', Sciences reexam.
My life is not that much messed up as everyone elses.
I know.
It's what a normal hormonal teenager goes through at the age of fifteen.
Some just have less of a care about their future.
And maybe I should be more like them.
And I done one thing to be like them.
I've stopped lookin' for that someone.
Knowin' that she/he would be there at that time at the right place.
Communication took a big hit to me.
and I realized.
I need to type in better English.
Need to care more about my O Level.
And let bygones be bygones.
You're on your last year.
Mine too.
It's all I've got to improve my future career chance.
If I get into a JC.
I know who will be proud of me.
If I get into a Poly just because of 3 points or less.
I know I did my best.
And you'd probably be upset.
But I've seen you much more upset than what you'd be.
But I'll never bring you down to that end.
Even though I know it really means nothin' to you.
It's means almost everythin' to me.
coz you is all I've got.
Wish you would at least say somethin'.
Anythin'.
I hate to be the one who always initiates it.
Just a simple hi.
That's all I need to know.
That I still have a chance to try.
If not.
I'd have to wait.
And ADD doesn't help much with waitin'.
You should know that.
Travelin' on the Sea and all.
Alright.
I'm done for the night.
Currently listenin' to : Bad Romance by Lady GaGa.
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