You're supposed to break my heart.

Why haven't you?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Short and Simple..

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE!!

and in and hour and 50 min..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

When I take you out and you,

You've got me standing in an awkward position with unwanted attention and a need for explanation and it's, not that I'm letting go of you, but I don't know what to do.

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60th post..

and if u know my other blog..

300th..

Today..

Band was well..

painful..

my lips are hurtin' like fuck..

and I DON'T WANNA BE 1st TRUMPET FUCKIN' FOREVER!!

torture i tell you..

TORTURE!!

Forcin' me to play somethin' I don't feel comfortable with..

I noe it has the gd parts..

melody and all..

but why must they make the melody so fuckin' high..

and then forcin' us to play it over and over and over again..

I don't noe what I'mma gonna do next year..

I can't study much..

and if I put the blame on band..

they're gonna say the fuckin' same thing they do every year..

and say that other Seniors can do it..

Why can't you..

and I have defence over that one..

COZ I HAVEN'T GOT THAT MUCH OF BRAINPOWER..

AND TIME!!

Well..

Yu Xian cried again..

'cause he can't play it properly..

and we all went..

WTF..

but he's Yu Xian..

that kind of person..

=X..

everyone's Stereotypical..

even my personalities are stereotypical..

like it or leave it..

I don't care no more..

some people can handle it..

so i guess you aren't "some people"..

=D..

The cherry on top.

The creme de la crop.

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Sch's startin' in 4 days..

man..

and it's a fuckin' friday..

hope there's no band..

can catch up with my friends..

urh..

I don't noe..

coz if there isn't..

Then I have to bring my instrument back tomoro..

urh..

I wanna go cheer Ter Ter Kor Kor up..

urh..

I give up..

I'm gonna go..

Shut up and let me go!

This hurts I tell you so!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I can't take it any longer..

I have to say it out loud!

I don't noe..

=X..

I just like screaming it at the beach..

I'm gonna miss that..

and plenty of things..

=(

well..

I've missed Garrett..

not seeing him for 6 months sucks..

could've been a year..

but at least forcing him to come back to take his report book thingy..

then seeing him..

=D..

well..

now I'm missing him again..

coz after seeing Terence like..

2 days in a row..

It although sucks..

but at least I got to see Ter Ter Kor Kor for 2 days..

and I hugged him once..

=S..

URH!!

really..

the more i think about it..

the more it sucks..

next time..

I'm gonna ask him out at least once a month..

=3..

mew..

Life's about film stars,

and less about mothers.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

WHOO!!

Just finished playing 4 rounds of Guitar Hero..

and WHOO!!

FUNFUNFUN!!

lawl..

The whole set..

WHOO!!

I wanna play again..

but with more people..

other than my sister..

coz the rest of them went home..

now I'm bored..

well..

not really..

I'm looking for stuff to play..

lalala..

Simply,

Knowing you exist.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Well..

I might as well tell you..

Yes I like you..

maybe more than a friend..

but not much more..

Maybe an occasional hug..

anything..

but never the sacred..

I act this way because..

It's my nature..

I'm a freak of nature..

and I know you like her..

unless..

I don't noe..

it's what people say..

I can choose whatever I wanna believe in..

and if i believe that..

I have plenty of other people..

well..

not plenty..

only 2..

=X..

That's why..

even if you misunderstand me..

it's not exactly what it is..

I'm me..

and although it's not fun..

I'll never cross the line..

=X..

Only when u move the line further away..

then I'll just hang around..

meh..

I don want it to end..

just stalling..

=3..

'coz you're hot and you're cold.

It's black and it's white.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

WHOO!!

pressies!!

5 hugs.

2 CDs.

1 Pendant.

A Hand Shake.

KATY PERRY!!

WHOOO!!

FINALLY!!

Christmas went pass quite fast..

since many people have to go back to work tomoro..

and i don't think i wanna anticipate it..

but SCHOOL'S REOPENING..

and another batch is gone and a new batch is in..

Gonna miss much of the going away..

since i missed much of the one's that went this year..

miss them so much..

gonna miss more of this years..

heh..

but our batch will rule!!

WHOOO!!

I'm a weapon of Massive Consumption.

It's not my fault, that's how I'm programmed to function.

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yesterday..

or shld i saw last night..

I went to Midnight Mass..

zzz..

tired..

anyways..

yea..

my sister's friend invited us to go..

and we went..

early..

at 10.30..

so we waited..

and waited..

and apprantly..

A LOT OF ST GAB'S BOYS ARE IN THAT CHURCH..

IHM btw..

and apprantly..

my sister's friend noes almost all these people..

*shock*

=D

so yea..

we went in..

and i saw Ter Ter Kor Kor..

then behind me was the De Souza's..

then saw Jing Xuan with his GF..

and suddenly..

I THINK I SAW VINCENT..

he better be sorry if he was..

coz he's gonna die on monday..

MUAH HAHAHAHAHA!!

anyways..

yea..

at 12..

(ooo saw Perry, another Kawaii ang moh, who fucking quit band)

*side trekking*

I could saw Perry WAS one of my best junior..

coz of his name..

PERRY!!

KATY PERRY!!

WHOOO!!

and he's kawaii too..

haha...

*back to da-, night's events*

Perry was some guy next to the..

er..

pope??

of father??..

i dono..

=X

so the celebration started..

or i think it's called a celebration..

oh wait..

the mass started..

ok..

so there was singing..

WHOO!!

i can sing high high high!!

i wanna sing next year..

ok then..

we were standing and sitting and kneeling on the floor..

and it was quite cool..

that's why..

I LIKE MASS!!

well then..

after the mass..

we were just outside the hall..

waiting ard for Stef to go ard and talk to her friends..

and so..

i saw Ter Ter Kor Kor..

WHOO!!

hugged him..

but regreted not talking to him more..

=(..

anyways..

his hug's my pressie..

=D..

and if he say's that a hug's all he wants from me..

then both pressies are down..

christmas and birthday..

=DD..

and then we went to eat roti prata..

kept laughing while drinking the curry..

and now i have a soar throat..

ROAR!!

well..

gonna go slp le..

sian..

You're cold and I'm HOT!

I'm up and you're down..

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Another one falling for it..

i think 11 people..

now I'm bored..

and now Jonas's angry..

coz i told him i wanna join Singapore National Youth Orchestra..

or Philharmonic Youth Winds..

and he said i shld join Sembawang Symphonic Winds..

and now he's angry coz he keeps telling me to join and i keep saying i don't wanna..

and now I'm confused..

coz I'm angry AND sad..

and lonely..

and well..

just plain fucking annoyed..

I'm gonna go die now..

and slow and painful death..

that might last for less than 100 years..

and more than ard 60+ years..

URH!!

I think I've used up all my resources to stop them from getting..

angry/emo/lonely..

and now that I'm all three..

I've no one to turn to..

and I think if i keep helping them..

I'll just hurt myself more..

Cereal-iously?

Love~

~~~~~

What do I love the most..

hmm..

Strawberries

Cereal

Rice

Broccoli

Katy Perry

The Ting Tings

Kate Nash

Ter Ter kor kor

Rong Rong kor kor

Rrabbitt =D

...

Today was awesome..

sorta..

too lazy to write it down now..

maybe tomoro..

=D

Every bone's been broken.

But my heart's still wide open.
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Today..
Went out to eat breakfast at East Coast Park Lagoon..
I ate Prawn Noodles..
where i suddenly realise..
they come not only with Prawns..
but with Pork Fillets..
and i was..
OMG..
since i didn't like Pork..
so i just left it there..
floatin' in the soup..

anyways..
then we went to Suntec City's Carrefour..
bought some Kettle for my cousin brother's house-warming gift..
heh..
then shopped ard for random stuff..
I was searchin' for Katy Perry's One of the Boys CD..
and i made a conclusion..
I THINK THEY BANNED HER ALBUM HERE!!
ROAR!!
I WANT THAT ALBUM SO BADLY!!

then..
went to eat at SOUPerlicious..
where the old Ben & Jerry's was..
(btw.. i think Ben & Jerry's closin' down everywhere.. the one at White Sands is gone..)
I ate Cream of Chicken and Corn..
quite ok..
cheaper than Soup Spoon..
but i think it's a smaller portion..

well..
then decided to go home..
but changed my mind and went to Gabby's house..
4th Band member's house ever been to..
First being Colin's for masterclasses..
then Terence's for fun.. (WHOO!)
then Sarvin's for Committee Meeting..

Played Viva Pinata..
=D..
I love the weird animal/pinata's they have..
then Roy came..
he said very borin'..
so we changed to some Car Racin'game..
I obviously lost..
since i hate car racin' games..
nvr was any good at it..
unless it's Mario Karts..
=DD..

then we set off..
makin' our way towards Raffle's Place..
realised i nvr remind Marc..
but he didn't wanna go anyways..
so yea..
Yu Xian was like..
I don't wan go le..
and we were like..
You can't just buy and don't go..
so he came down as fast as he could..
think he made the interval..
meh..
i don't really care..

The concert was great..
although i didn't understand what songs they were..
I just payed attention..
while CK was like..
sleepin' for a bit..
makin' me feel sleepy..
=X..

then we went to eat after the concert..
walked ard Raffle's Place..
then decided to go to Suntec City..
but ended up at Long John Silver at Marina Square..
the food was horrid..
meh..
and service was even worse..
I feel bad now..
seeing as how i got an extra free Chix fillet..
i ordered 2 piece..
I ended up gettin' a 3 piece..
so i was like..
I ordered 2 piece only..
but CK, Jason and Gabby was like..
don't care..
just take it..
reuben didn't care..
coz even if he had that 3 piece..
he couldn't finish it..
and Roy was all..
HEY!
THOUGH YOU ORDERED THE 2 PIECE SET..
and the rest of the group was like..
SHHHH..
meh..

i ate it up anyways..
but i left out the FUCKIN' dry fries..
and half of my drink to gabby..
coz he complained the food was too dry..
I couldn't finish it up anyways..

well..
tomoro we're meetin' up to go bowlin'..
they're meetin' at 11am at Pasir Ris mrt..
maybe i shld go pick them..
or just go straight to E!Hub first..
i dono..
well..
cya tomoro..

Everything's fine.

Except you've got that look in your eye
~~~~~~~~~

another song about my life.

"When I'm tellin' a story and you find it boring
You're thinking of something to say"

It happens..
Whenever i say something..
u seem to be listening..
but nah..
u're just acting..

"You said I must eat so many lemons 'cause I am so bitter"

I am bitter for a reason..
and i love lemons..
=P

"Yes, it was childish and you got aggressive
And I must admit that I was a bit scared
But it gives me thrills to wind you up"

Childish gets u aggressive..
just admit it..
and i can manipulate u in a heartbeat..
just don't count on me telling u when..

"And every time we fight, I know it's not right
Every time that you're upset and I smile
I know I should forget, but I can't "

exactly what it says..
I get angry at you..
but i try to supress it..
and i can't seem to forget it..
I'm quirky that way..

Credits go to Kate Nash.. =D

The winner takes it all.

The loser standing small.
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I <3 KATY PERRY!!
I <3 KATE NASH!!
I <3 THE TING TINGS!!
I <3 ABBA!!

I'm bored..
I'm confused..
I'm sad..
I'm crazy..
I'm tired..
I'm naive..
I'm simple..
I'm complicated..

Procrastinate!!!

It's a lifestyle.
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Today..
suppossed to go for another Lecture..
but since Gabby and reuben weren't going..
I've decided to sleep in..
and then went out to meet Emman, Roy and Jonas at TM..
they went for the lecture..
coz they had nothing to do..

then we ate lunch at MosBurger..
then went to the Arcade upstairs..
played for i think 2 hours?..

and now Roy's here..
over at my place..
coz Gabby just awoke..
and he turned off his phone..

I <3 You.

Yes, I love you.
REALLY.
~~~~~~~~~~~~

I wanna go back..
not so long ago..
maybe a year?
and start things new with you..
I noe we've known each other for 2 years already..
and we just simply became closer this year..
and now..
I can't see you anytime i wanna..
there's no joy in returning to sch..
knowing you're not there anymore..
I've already sufferred a year without seeing your face everyday..
now it makes me wanna just hug every single week..
=S

Hooked..

I'm hooked on Facebook.
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Today was stupid/fun..

Woke up at 9..
left house at 9.45 to go to TPJC for some lecture..
I was late..
=X..
but i wasn't the latest to go to the sch..
some marist people were late..

anyways..
the lecture was abt instruments..
and music..
WHICH WAS ENTIRELY BORING!!
only 6 of us showed up..
Reuben, Gabriel, Emmanuel, Joshua, Roy and I..
out of the whole lecture hall..
there were Marist, Chong Boon's and TPJC people..
and us..
6 of us..

then we were quralling on where else to go..
then we diecided to go watch Bolt..
so Emman and Roy wanted to go to Si Mei..
and I told them we shld go E!Hub..
coz Gabby and Reuben haven't been there before..

so yeapp..
there we went..
taking 21..
then we ate burger king..
PEOPLE LIKE MUSHROOMS!! YAY!!
MUSHROOMS FTW!!

then we went to buy the tix..
at 1.25 to watch bolt at 1.25..
so nice..
the timing was just right..
anyways.. limited commercials..
since we came in a few minutes after they started..

I WANNA WATCH BOLT AGAIN!..
although it was long.. it felt short..
=X..

yea.. then after movie..
we walked to White Sands..
Joshua had to go home before 4..
so he left..
then the rest of us went to popular, library, some shops (gabby bought a T.)
then to NTUC to buy water..
then we went to East Point (Si Mei btw)..

then walked ard for a while..
then ate dinner..
at 5.30?..
=DD..

Gabby, reuben and Roy shared a plate of carrot cake..
I ate Chicken Chop and Rice..
Emman ate noodles..
and the three of them with the carrotcake were quraling abt how much Reuben was eating coz he only paid $0.30 out of the $5..
gabby paid $1..
then roy payed the rest..
and i still got to eat one piece..
=DD..

then later..
they decided to continue to City Hall..
but i didn't wanna go..
so i went home..
and now here i am..
=DD

11 flowers.

makes one look a dozen!
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I'm getting freaking bored and paranoid..
It hurts so much..
I WANNA GET OUTTA SECONDARY SCHOOL AND GO INTO JC NOW!!
Life's like that..
U wanna make it go fast..
you go SLOW..
WAY SLOW..
then people will have to match with your speed..
then u CHIONG all the way..
that's my tactic..
=D..
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Went to see TJC concert this evening..
with Gabby, Chun Kiat, Kovan, Emmanuel, Jonas, Yu Xian, Liu Tun, Joshua Jude, Chin Hong and Niranjan..
the concert was quite ok..
I only knew the christmas songs and encore..
the rest just went "BLAH!!" in and outta my head..
gonna go slp now..
tomoro gonna go listen to some lecture on next year's set piece..
*btw.. the composer for those set pieces.. Kelly Tang, IS A GUY!
WTF!@(&(_!&@%!!*

All that glitters is not gold.

Two wrongs don't make a right.
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I think something's going to be very wrong..
We're soo gonna screw up somewhere in the future..
and in WE..
I mean the band..
roar..

nothing to write abt today..
nothing interesting happened..
=S

My life's a song.

It's all Katy Perry-ish. (I <3 KATY PERRY!!)
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Life's simple.

Katy Perry with Simple:



You're such a poet,
I wish I could be Wesley Willis
My words would flow like honey,
sweet and laid on thick


You're so edgy
You don't even need a rhyming dictionary
I wipe my hands on your
jeans, 'cause they are more distressed

So they say--you got O.C.D.
And they claim you can barely read
But you say "Don't bother
me with all of your reality"

But it could be so simple
(you were thinking)
Life should be that simple
(Who would have thought it)
I wish it were just so simple
(don't know what you were thinking)
But the point's been missed
You've made a mess
Who would have guessed
That it's as simple as it seems

So what, you're a genius
But you've got a lot to learn
Like the time you lost your apartment
Cause you bought too much Vuitton

You park in a loading zone
You sleep with the lights all on
You cross your i's and dot your t's
All it goes to show

That it could be so simple
(you were thinking)
Life should be that simple
(Who would have thought it)
I wish it were just that simple
(don't know what you were thinking)
The point's been missed
We've made a mess
Who would have guessed
That it's as simple as it seems

I'm not saying that it's a piece of cake
Just take a moment to re-evaluate
The possibilities
The situations
The opportunities
That are waiting
Oh, the possibilities Oh, I

It could, it could be that simple
(you were thinking)
Life should be that simple
(Who would have thought it)
I wish it were just so simple
(don't know what you were thinking)
You're in a haze
It's just a phase
You know this maze
Is as simple as it seems

We could talk all day
About your eccentricities
What I mean to say
Oh, is that I need you listen please
And focus on life's simplicities
So don't be afraid to strip it away
Cause at the end of the day
It's still as simple as it seems

It is all so simple
Just deal with it

I don't wanna be like you.

'I saw a spider
I didn't scream
Cause I can belch the alpahbet
just double dog dare me'

I don't wanna be one of your people.
Y'all are just fucking rude.
And if you can't sense personal space.
Well then, I DON'T FUCKING CARE!!

'And I chose gutiar over ballet
and I'd take these suckers down
cause they just get in my way.'

And if you can't care for people.
Stay fucking far away from me.
I just don't wanna be near you anymore.
You're obnoxious, rude, and I didn't invite you.

I <3 KATY PERRY!

Let it snow.

I know what I want..
I WANT SINGAPORE TO SNOW!!
I WANNA BE SKINNY AND FIT!!
I WANNA WEAR A TRENCH COAT!!
ROAR!!

I DON'T CARE IF ANYONE ELSE IS..
I WANNA BE THEM..
ROAR!!

Where will I ever end up

Maybe near him?
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this sucks..
back from Japan and I had to go for band..
but i realised it was up to 1pm..
so technically..
If i left for band..
I'll reach there ard 12.45?
so technically..
I didn't leave home..
roar..

anyways..
I hate going for band in the hols..
i mean..
technically..
I have to travel for almost more than an hour there..
just to practise for next year's SYF..
i mean..
is fame and fortune really everything?
I don't mind not getting gold for SYF..
I mean..
I'm not power hungry..
I just do it to fit in..
but I don't wanna fit in with these people..
I wanna fit in with people like Garrett..
Or MX..
no worries in the world..
and if they do..
I'll solve 'em..
=DD

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I bet my life and your's are different..
even if i like both sides of the party..
I just..
find it enjoying..
having people of the same interests..
and the interest itself..

although they find us to be friends..
I feel more than just friends..
it's just the way i am..
and although i feel that way..
I dont know when to tell them..
or him..
=X..

u may already noe how i feel..
and what i am..
but i don't care..
and if these get's to them..
I don't care..
he'll noe sooner or later..
I wish i still could see him..
but that time has passed..
and we regretted not making use of that time..

I sincerely miss him..